I haven't been able to update this blog like I wanted to and that's most due to me trying to find a job, and dealing with alot of what I like to call BIG DOUBT. I've been feeling a bit discouraged lately in my skills, especially they're being assessed that just makes feel like I'm not good enough, or that it's too late for me to turns things around and get back to blogging and posting regularly like I used to.

I just get really frustrated with myself, but that frustration just makes me double down on not posting because I feel like a trying to play catch up, but at the same time I feel like I'll never be able to catch up.

BUT I REALLY want to post more because I like having a blog, a space to call my own. I don't want to feel like I can't come back to this place because I failed to meet a standard that I made up, it's not like the audience who does read this blog are foaming at the mouth for another post, or are rude or curt to me in any way. Most people I have talked to who have read my blog are pretty nice and understanding, its just my own inner voice that's the problem.

I REALLY don't want to give up on posting, so I'm going to try to post a new post on at least ONE of my blog here on Typepad at least once every two weeks. I want to work up to post every week. I'm going to post about something, even if it is something kind of small or weird, or something someone has already done a 5-hour YouTube video about, I just want to write something!

I just want to write something....

Eating: Nothing...	Listening: Chillhop Nujabes Comp	Last Played: BG3 (Finally beat that Nere dude oof)	Worried Abt: Getting A Job, Maintaing A Consistant Blogging Schedule
Drinking: Nothing..	Last Watched: Agatha All Along	Mood:	Last Read: Sinceration (a story that a discord homie is working on)