This is one of the reasons I want to get back into reviewing stuff, not as a way to dictate what's good and what's bad, but more in a way to remind myself why I enjoy something, and maybe even sometimes I why didn't enjoy a thing (but I dont want to be mean about it or dwell on it tho). I felt like I spent the last few years not enjoy as much stuff as I used to, and at some points I felt like I was almost afraid to enjoy stuff that was bad (which is weird coming from me since I really LOVE Ratatoing). I think passively watching a bunch of media rant videos prolly play a role in this too, I guess after you hear some many people talk bad about  each and every piece of new media that comes out its hard to find stuff that you really like. Passively watching drama vids (for communities I'm not even apart of) prolly' did some psyche damage too, especially since a lot of that drama was fandom related, so I started to see fandom (and liking stuff in general) as a bad/toxic thing/place. 

I think in my early 20s the bad habit I developed was listening to how I felt instead of actually doing a reality check to see if those feelings were actually right, I guess I really dove into those feelings because I FELT like the feeling of being wrong was the worst feeling I could ever experience. Like I said that's how I FELT, in RL that wasn't true at all! 

Recently, I took up doing bible study, and that really helped me figure some things out about myself, and the world. In my most recent bible study, I learned that God places  passions and interests in people that could be found in the world. While its not okay to be consumed by worldly things, its okay to enjoy and embrace the interest and passions we find in this world that brings us comfort and joy, if a interest/passion beings us joy then that's a sign that God has placed that interest in us. By embracing and appreciating this interest, we are actually appreciating and embracing God's work, his love and his joy.

Oof, sorry, I didn't mean to go all sunday school on ya' (not like how I know how sunday school works, I've never been, lol), but thoughts like that really help in a world that makes you feel bad for liking something just because a human made it or said interest has a flaw in it because it was made by a being with a ton of flaws (duh). 

I really miss reviewing like I used to I miss doing the research, taking notes, making the title gifs, and I really miss having something to post that's not just a sadpost or food for thought! I want to get this blog back to a place where I can talk about what I like, and sometimes (but not all the time, hopefully) stuff I didn't like, I think I could really use this blog as tool to help me understand myself better from my own perspective instead of listening to what others think or say.

Oof, this post was super rambly and I went all over of the place, but that's how one of these food for thought post usually go, hopefully (and REALLY do mean hopefully) the next post will be on something media related or something that's not just food for thought

Until next time later days....