New Rule: Anime Food

I wanna start every post from now on (that's not a review or when I'm not clever enough to think up a header image) with a pic of anime/cartoon food because it's always so pretty to look at (and how knows it might even remind me to eat on occasion, lol). Anyways, I told myself from now on that I was gonna skip the whole speech of "oh sorry for not posting in a min" but I realize that speech always discourages me from posting and making feel bad n' shiz, this blog is pretty chill and if there IS anyone who looks forward to these post, they can probably take the hint that I really care about this post and enjoy posting, its just that more often than not I become a victim of my overly critical self-critic, and it makes me feel like a loser doing anything (even simple stuff like playing video games or watching anime).

I feel like if I don't do those things on an (unrealistically) strict basis, I'll lose interest it wouldn't be fun anymore, then I'll feel like a  loser because I can't even enjoy things that I used to, I think that my 2 year depression slump I had to do something with that, I was in a bad place and almost any activity I used to love just didn't feel fun aor worth it anymore. The only thing I had left was art, and it did help that there would be at least a FEW people that would like my stuff and made me feel like a I had some control and presence in my life. I think was going through what they call "Anhedonia", I know that its VERY CURRENT year to try to psychoanalyze myself, but I really think that's what I was (and still is kind of) going through, the things I liked doing just became meh, and think I had a fear in part taking in said activity because I didn't want to feel like the feeling of emptiness that I was going to be eventually followed by the feeling of dread.