I've moved out from my parents place, and moved into an apartment with my sister, it was a hard choice, at least for my sister, but a pretty easy one for me since being around my parents can be little overwhelming. We moved about two weeks ago now I think, we made pretty good process in my opinion, we had to sleep on the floor for the first few days it wasn't long before we got a bed. I'm sharing a room with my sister until I can get some more stuff for my room, right now all that's in there are sacks of clothes and bed without a frame. I was without a computer for about a week, which wasn't too long, we have a tv but have yet to set up the switch and move some other game consoles from our parent's houses. We still go over to our parent's place because we still have few stuff over there, but I think we should be fully moved by the end of October or earlier November. We also go over to our parents' house because my sister still has business inventory over there and still has yet to move the computer she uses for her business over to our new place, which means we spend at least 6 hours a day there, which is enough for me to grab some stuff to move but my sister's car can only hold so much and I MYSELF can only hold so much, being at my parent's house now kind of puts me on edge so I usually try to distract myself (When I have no more stuff to move) with youtube vids or just taking a nap. It can be pretty frustrating since moving out feels like I'm just starting to gain actual freedom and control, so being at my parent's place just reminds me of the little control I had over there and that's not really good for me mentally, but my sister says she'll move the business computer she's used to the new place soon, so we don't always have to be over there, especially recently since my sister and dad got into an agreement which really wasn't something you want to wake up to after taking a nap.

Because of that today, I still feel kind of low energy, I'm trying to get back into my usual schedule of making art, playing games, reading books, and watching shows for entertainment instead of just background noise, those are things I really like doing before I got into a depression after things in my personal life went into a downward spiral. I was finding it really hard to have any enjoyment in making art or (and especially playing games ) but I think being a more welcoming environment where my body isn't always in a high alert mode in expectation of something bad happening will be good for me. I can't wait to start an actual routine/schedule and start working on improving myself without being harshly judged or guilt-tripped about it. 

I really hope this is the LAST post I make on here being so personal in a negative light, I want to get back into making reviews, game logs, anime logs, and just talking about art and stuff that I actually like instead of just virtual sulking and venting about my latest mental breakdown.

On the subject of stuff, I  like Eastward is finally coming out, its a game that never really talked about before on my blog (but I feel like I should have, but anyways). I've been following it for 3 years now, and I'm super hyped it's coming out on THRUSDAY. I hoping to actually push myself to play and FINISH the game, since I waited so long for it, and hoping it will kickstart me into playing more games and stuff. 

I think that's all I wanted to talk about for now, until next time...

Later days~