So, hopefully this will be the last post where I talk about learning the same lesson that I said I learned in the last post, and HOPEFULLY after this post I'll actually post a review, video or something fun/funny that doesn't include my doubts and fears. Anyways, I was working on a comic (which I don't know if I'm actually going to post online  because its just kind of really weird and something that I'm doing just for the pure heck of it) and I also started working on an animation of a fairy flying for the first time, and I started on making assets for a Boba tea "dress up" flash game. It's in the vain of the old  flash dress up games I used to play on sites like girls go games and even Deviantart. I'll probably post it here if it's good enough when it's done-- it'll probably be like-- a dropbox thing since flash is going to be killed next year--Oof. As I started to work on the these projects all at once as I do-- to feel more productive even though that just ends up making me feel overwhelm and like I'm not giving each project enough of my attention. 

The overwhelming worries started to flood back again, so I started my breathing techniques and started just poking around the web (watching videos and such). While poking around I wounded up playing Mystical Ninja and when I started playing I started to get the feeling that I was abandoning my projects, so I decided to click to go back, and before I didn't I wanted to play some music, but I accidentally ended up clicking on another video about a youtuber not being happy even after she hit 1 million subs and decided to take a break. Usually I find these type of videos to be click-bait-y but I decided to sit and listen to this one because it just felt like it was important. The girl in the video describe all the feelings I was feeling (self-doubt, striving for perfection, frustration, etc)  and she talked about not to let yourself get overwhelm for the need of perfection with your work, that it's okay if you make something bad as long as you're able to learn from it in the end, and hearing that brought me some comfort. Comfort in knowing that I'm not the only one feeling these feelings and that's okay if I can't make my work look like extacly what I envisioned in my head-- that it's okay to make something that's bad. So, yeah basically I'm going to take break from art to play some Mysitcal Ninja--yeet!

Later days~