I've been thinking about changing these type of blogs to "what I've been up to" but then I feel like that's a little bit too basic and boring, and artsy update just has a nice ring to it.  So, about what I've been up to artistically speaking I've seemed to have gotten a lot into 3D art (i.e model making and posing). I know earlier on this blog around last year I said I was going to make a 3D comic, but I scrapped that because the plot seemed cringy and wish fulfillment-y (if you know what I mean).  So, now I'm just going to focus on doing posing and editing like (I do with the sims) some of these pictures might have a story with it, but nothing too like story driven. 

This is where I liked to admit that I have sorta of a love/hate relationship with MMD (Miku Miku Dance, the 3D animation/posing program I use), mostly because it's really connected to my cringy  "get famous quick" DA days and having my first 2D guy obsession (yeah, those were the days), and not mention the community is riddled (or at least once was) with young fangirls who just want a model of their favorite husbando to take cute pics with. But, if one were to look pass that they would find a bunch of very creative people ( as with any art community) . Sadly (and imo) this part of the MMDC (Miku Miku Dance Community) is pretty hard to find, and you gotta dig down deep to find really good well made original characters models.

This part of the community I find really inspiring and made me want to jump back in to making my own stuff. There's one MMD'er in particular I found inspiring and that is  one Tehisle-MMD  , I found her stuff through youtube while poking around and watching a bunch of animation memes (one of my many guilty pleasures) and it's really good. 

Teishle's work is really colorful, bright and funny and not mention she seems to have perfected the facial expressions on her model (the blonde hair/blue one that she made herself of course). Due to her expressive colorful characters and animations Teishle has gain quite a following on not only DA, YT but also the popular lip-sync app, Tik-Tok.

Another MMD I would like to showcase is Randomationsyt  , an MMD'er who has high hopes of making a full blown animated web series with her characters called Jolted...

It's a show about two siblings going on a rescue mission but they both have a different way of going about it and the types of different unique characters they meet on the way. The show's still in early production, she still trying to get some stuff together but she has managed to put one clip up and intro on her youtube channel....

Same with Teishle's OCs, Rando's OCs are all very unique and expressive....

While I (myself) don't plan on making anything as ambitious making a whole series or have a following as big as  teishle, I just want make some more cute characters. So, I did--well trying to accomplish at the time I'm typing this but here's what I've got so far....

Here's Lexi,  a girl obsessed with stars, the moon, space, the color purple and cats. That's all I got to her character so far (again not trying to make a whole production here) and here's the pics I've taken...

I was playing around in MMD and after years I figured out that I could mess with the lighting, so I did (with the last pic anyways). Back in the early MMD days I download a ton of models of characters, stages, and objects from games  I like,  so some of these pics maybe be crossovers in a way...

Lexi seemed a little bit lonely (part of meeting Rosalina and Baby Luma and her own pet cat named Luma) I decided to make her a friend (plus I think group MMD pictures are alot more fun and engaging than solo pics)

I'm still making Lea (random name I decided on and it just stuck) there's like a thing where when I try to load her into MMD it crashes and I'm trying to work that out.  Apart from the crashing I'm actually pretty proud of this one the outfit came together better than I thought it would and I added the double moles under the eyes myself...

 Since, I was on a model making kick (and I was getting frustrated with the crashing model), I up and made a self model. It turned out pretty well and I made it pretty quick so there's are still some kinks I need to work out, but at least it doesn't crash the program. 

Yeah that's pretty much it for MMD stuff on to the next thing...

On the topic of Sims editing, remember that contest I got myself into in that one sims discord? Well I WON! yep, I was one of the 3 winners in the new year January contest, as award I just got the title of winner on the discord and that's it. The feeling winning was award itself and everyone was nice about it too.

Other than winning a editing contest I finally finished the lookbook for that one sim I got by pressing the random button...

These came out pretty great and as you can  see I  got more and more experimentally decorative with each edit. I want to do a lookbook with the Tracie sim (the one that's going to be the main character in my get famous playthrough) because she does serve some cute looks... (but I still have to finish some CC shopping, I still have a boatload of CC I still haven't sorted through on my tumblr)

In terms of pixel art, I have made a few new pieces some swords and ice cream...

Basic sword design but it's a start, but if  I keep at it I'll probably be able to make more complex cooler designs. 

I didn't work on any drawings this time, the little Prompto drawing based on the one headcanon I liked that someone made up, I still working on that, but just because I've gotten in 3D art making doesn't mean I've given up on 2D/traditional drawing. To be honest  I could only see me making a short Vine length type of animation in MMD than a full length short (which I would probably do with 2D animation).  I will always filp/switch mediums on the whim on inspiration, but I will always have a passion for 2D traditional stuff..... 

So, yeah that's all the stuff I've been working on for the past week or so, with the way I do things who knows what I'll work on next..

Until next time.....

This is a series I'll probably (more like hopefully) be doing more often in where I talk about my latest fascination/obsession. During my time here on the internet, I more often than not get swept up in communities that I never really thought about exploring before. Much like in Alice in wonderland, I find one thing interesting and follow it and it usually leads me to a whole new part of the internet I have yet to explore. (I was going to call this down the rabbithole, but a guy on youtube already has that name, so Ash's Adventures in Internetland it is!)

As some of you may have already know as of late i recently gotten in playing FF15. It's a pretty fun game with relatively easy to learn gameplay, beautiful graphics, and a likable and remember able cast of characters. In recent news it was announced that the game's development would cease due to the director stepping down to focus on his own company. Since I haven't made a editorial like post in a hot minute and this game has been on my mind for the past few weeks since I started playing, I would like to talk about it's rather "unfortunate" situation...

For those of you who don't know Final Fantasy 15 (FF15 for short) was game that was released in late 2016. The game was announced in around '06 and many people were excited for it, since the game had promised an engaging story and a likeable cast of characters. The game went through development heck being announced to be coming soon only to have the date be pushed back to a later date. The game went through tons of changes and redesigns, most doubted if it was ever going to come out. Die-hard fans were still hopeful the game's release and on November 29 2016, they're prays were answered...kind of. You see while the game was released on November 29, the game itself wasn't necessarily complete. There were a host of issues that the game had characters get stuck in small areas, the sound mixing was weird, some chapters were oddly short, one chapter that some people dubbed the infamous 13th chapter was almost down right impossible to get through, and bunch of other stuff ive probably haven't even heard of. I remember watching my older sister and brother play this game, but they both stopped due to the fact that story was just oof.

(Warning: I'm about to go into spoiler territory, so if you haven't play FF15 and like not to be spoil then turn back now go play it for yourself or watch it on the YouTubes , it's wizards only, fool) So, for the half of the game it's mostly just about prince Noctis going a road trip with his buddies, the gameplay here mostly consist of battling monsters, fetch quests, fishing, chocobo racing/riding, riding in the car while Resonance by home plays on the radio (the last part is a joke because that's music I would play in the car, because the songs on the radio in this aren't really part of my aesthetic but then again like a mix of lo-fi and meme music so...bleh. oof I would so play Resonance and Don't forget to feed your neopet on loop on the long car rides) crashing at hotels and camping. The game has a light hearted Bros just hanging out type feel and there's also kind of little soical link events that happen when you stay at certain, basically these events are mostly just cute one-off adventures in which Noctis has one on one time with one of his friends.

Even after his father dies and his hometown is basically destroyed you can still almost completely ignore that and just focus on having bro time. It isn't until about the last 1/3 of the game when stuff goes downhill the general consensus that the story takes a serious tonal shift around chapter 10/11 and takes a complete nosedive at chapter 13. That's when things get serious and the characters split up for a while, one of your friends loses his eyesight, another finds outs that he's a clone (but it's actually more like his dad used the son's DNA to make clone soldiers, which I found weird that his bio dad never put in any effort to go find his son after he got kidnapped but the Dad's evil and probably didn't care) this also where the story starts to rush you to final boss.

Now, I feel like anyone could deal with such a weird story as long as the ending is decent, like I said in a previous post a good story comes down to the ending. Here's, where my own problem lies with the story and why I'm currently taking my sweet time with the game, at the end Noctis collects the weapons used by the previous Kings, and gets sucked into a crystal for 10 years, finds out he's the true king of old that some old healer dude who's immortal and looks like a bootleg Jake Sparrow wants kill because of revenge, but Noctis defeats him and sacrifices himself so he can restore light to the world (because it fell into darkness when he left) and to make sure that bootleg Jake Sparrow is dead in both body and spirit, and reunites and marries his childhood friend and princess Lunaferya in the afterlife. During the mid credits you get to see a scene of Noctis saying goodbye to his friends, and all sad and stuff. Now, I'm not one who has to have a happy ending in all of my media

, I don't mind a sad ending as long it's well done. ( I like stuff great Gatsby, HER, and eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind- yeah those are movies but you get the point) what makes me and probably others upset about this ending is that the game is an open world adventure game with post story gameplay! I just find it kind of ridiculous that you take the time to let the audience get attached to these characters watch them goes through heck and back (almost quite literally at some point) and at the end of the credits after you been on this emotional roller coaster the game's like "hey, don't forget we got post gameplay", and not only that but you because go back in time before any of the heavy stuff started to happen and go back to bro time. Like seriously what the heck! That's like if in the walking dead season 1 the game at the end after you watch Lee die, the game let's you free roam and bash zombies brains like it's nothing. I don't mind post game play it's fine, I just don't think it mixes well with such a emotional book end ending. I would like to think my own reason for being wtf towards the game is also common with a few people, others problem with the game comes from how things near the end aren't explained well, seemingly important stuff is just shrugged off, characters appear and disappear without rhyme or reason, and the game gets almost strictly linear the closer to the ending you get. This was a big problem for the game when it first came out, people complained the game felt rushed at the end and empty at in some parts. Square Enix saw this was a major issue decided to fix it by not only updating the game but also adding dlc.

Before I fell into this FF15 rabbit hole, I never thought that major AAA companies could run a project so poorly and rushed. Alot people think dlcs are just for game companies to get more money out players. I don't mind dlc if it's optional personally I think most dlc should be optional (e.i stuff like clothes, side characters, weapons, extra adventures that are just for fun and don't contain plot important information) but good chunk of the dlc does contain important story information that fills the empty spaces people were complaining about. Not mention, the other dlc pack that basically transforms the final linear area in the open world area like it was suppose to be. I won't really complain to much about this, if at least the people who got the game on day one were given a season pass, but NOPE---you have to pay extra for the season pass, my dude. What makes this really rich is that, two years after the game came out there's a version called the royal edition of the game that included the season pass plus extras, and I think the windows edition gets the same treatment as well. So, sucks for you if you were excited for this game and pre-ordered thinking you would get a full game, you should have just waited two years if you wanted, m8. It just kind of frustrates me that square had rushed the game near the end, and thought dlc could fix it but didn't even bother giving season passes to those who got it on day one.
My sister told that this game was supposed to at have 3 games to it, the first game was supposed to be just Bros hanging out ending with the kingdom falling, second was supposed to be figuring what to do and rising action and all that jazz, and the third was supposed to be the big finish, but they smashed it all into one which I guess is where the 10 year time jump comes from.
Oof, I just feel so bad the director you could tell that he really cared and love this project so much, so sad to see it turn into a rush job. I wholeheartedly understand why he left to make his own studio, hopefully has more luck making games there than with square.
Despite the weirdnesses from the company, and thinking about what the game could have been I'm still happy with the game I got. I'm taking my time with it (I'm only on chapter 3), but as long as you don't invest too much in the story it's a good time. One of the game's shiny qualities is the characters and how they interact with one another. While some say the dub of the game is cringy, I find it really endearing. I always look forward to hearing the Bros banter amongst each other, and even repeated diagonal is nice to hear. These characters have believable chemistry together as friends, and I think the tours are some of the best parts of the game. I read in a YouTube comments section that the game was supposed to have more tours, but fans complained that it was too gay, so the scrapped most of them. True or not, I still enjoy the ones that made to the game.

My favorite character is Prompto, I like his sweet, caring attitude towards his friends, and how he tries to do his best, how he looks up to each of his friends, and tries to cheer on and up others even though his own self esteem is kind of low but he's working on it, how far he's come from being a shy boy to an outgoing friendly guy, how shy he gets around Cindy, and slowly but surely builds up the courage to ask her out, and his random selfies, the dorky things he says, his love for chocobos, and his overall appearance I find really cute. If I were one of those people I would call him "my son" but since find that really cheesy and cringy , yeah nah. Just because a character like him exist in this game, I'm glad it's a thing. Seriously, I think he really maybe one of my video game characters next Teddy from P4, Yusuke from P5, and Gonta from DRV3. I mind make a niche board for him later.

Also the FF15 fandom (at least Reddit) is pretty chill, from what I've seen they took the hard news about the director leaving pretty well. There were a few sad meme here and there and one salty post that's it, I was expecting their reaction to be similar to telltale's fandom but it wasn't. Also, they are super friendly and helpful to newcomers to the game, and they don't mind joking about how off the game can be at times. Now, the fandom on fanfic side of things are a weird mix of horny and sweet like the fanfic will start out normal and sweet until you realize half of this fanfic is set in the bedroom. I always find it funny when people claim video game fans always over sexualize female characters, but from ive seen it's just about as equal if not more at least in the realm of fanfiction. Like seriously, most of the fics on Archive Of Our Own are E rated (and nope the E is not for everyone). Again, some of the headconon (which is the stuff that game didn't cover or usually just scenarios/ what ifs) stuff can be really sweet like "how the chocobros (chocobros is what they affectionately called the main cast) react if they found a lost stray, how would the chocobros take a care of a child, how would the chocobros react to a surprise hug from behind, how would the chocobros react to a old woman hitting on them, what do the chocobros wear to bed" to stuff like "how would the chocobros go down on a lady, what are their kinks, which chocobro would be a top, bottom, Dom, sub etc." And this stuff will be on the next after the fluff stuff like-

*Sigh* but in every fandom there's always the weird ones,
But that's all I wanted to ramble about today, just the lastest rabbithole I've found myself in and certainly not the last..
Well until next time..

It's everyone favorite time of the week, month or however you count your time in this endless void of nothing called life, another artsy update from your friendly internet Zoomer (I think I still don't understand generations like at all).  Yeah, I'm terrible at intros, but you know what I'm good at segways and speaking of being terrible at intros. Today was my first day in my local art class --BOOM-- SEGWAY. ( Ladies and Gentlemen I think I got IT! ) Hmm, but 2018 memes aside I started art classes today, and I had to introduce myself to the class (which mostly consisted of stay at home moms, college students and an old man), I had to try my best not sound like a NEET that stays at home questioning their existence, but it's not like I do that because I have ART and this blog that proves that I do things.

Yeah, I think I did a pretty decent job at my intro I also tried not sound like I was the next Leonardo da Vinci, I describe my art as decent and I said that I was taking the class so that my art would more structure because that's what I think my art needs  to GET GOOD. Most of the class was just practicing different shading techniques and seeing the difference between the different types of pencils, but near the end we did some observational drawing (which is basically still life drawings) and I've always feel nervous/anxious about drawing still life and realism in general. I couldn't really pin point what this exact feeling, like I could never really get what this feeling was, it was until the teacher started making critics of our work in class that I finally realize it. The teacher had said that while my overall drawing was good, but she had noticed that while I was drawing I kept pick up and putting down my pencil trying to prefect my placement of the pencil.

She told that she could tell that had been drawing for a long time, and I know the shapes and have a understanding of how they work and that just need to trust myself (and also I shouldn't be afraid to go press hard on the pencil). When the teacher said that it really opened my eyes, I found it really funny too, because I always like to think I'm the type of person that believes in myself on just about everything (growing up on Barbie, and American Girl movies can do that to ya). So, it's almost funnily ironic that in the realm of art, a medium in which I loved ever since I could pick up a pencil, that I don't believe in myself. I only feel like this with  stuff like realism, backgrounds, and still life, I guess because if mess up with a cartoon drawing I can just say "it's cartoon/it's just my style"--not like I would use either those excuse. I would just fix it and move on, but when it comes to still life I just get so in my head like-- Oh, it's has to be prefect because it's still life, it's based off REAL LIFE. If you mess up then game over, man GAME OVER! Like that one vine with the kid playing mini-golf and he misses the shot and yeets himself into the water.  But, I guess I should keep playing, instead of yeet myself into the water when I made one mistake, should just try again and keep going.

Wow, come through R/im12andthisisdeep, but anyway overall the class was pretty great. Everyone was nice and the teacher's criticism wasn't as harsh as I thought, it actually made me realize how harsh my own criticism is.  The teacher also offered to give some criticism on my drawing in my sketchbook, but it's kind of weird because I told the class that I liked drawing people, and the teacher being an art teacher took that as I like to draw portraits (sigh I really should have said character design instead), but I maybe still take her  up on that offer later down the line.  Yeah, the class was great and  I'm kind of really excited to see  what I learn next, and I hope that my art has some kind of change after this class.

Enough about IRL stuff on to what I've been up, I finally gotten around to doing more lookbook  and general edits (that aren't like story-based) for the sims. I've just been making like profile pics and mock up magazines covers at the moment, those are the only I've finished (I haven't yet to gotten around to the actual lookbook pics). The magazine edit was so good that it caught the attention of someone running a sims magazine cover contest on another sims discord. Usually, I don't participate in contest because like I said in my art class introduce my art skills are OK (Lisa Frank I am not) but since the girl hit up my DMs--ya know seek  out and asked me-- it would be rude to say "NO".  I finished my entry today and here's how it turned out:

It looks decent, but I still feel like I made a lot of rookie mistakes. Like my cropping on the girls could have been better, the magazine is a bit too long for a magazine,  and the glow on the light on the font on the lower right is a bit much. 

Here are the screenshots I took for the lookbook:

I really like how the last one came out, some of these poses were pretty hard to find, but they were worth it. (I'll also be doing a magazine cover with this sim just because how cool she looks)

As for what I've been drawing, I've been drawing alot of Prompto from FF15. I really like Prompto as a character find him really relateable  and sweet (not mention really cute). Although he's one of the reason why I don't feel too comfortable showing my sketchbook to the art teacher, just feel like some of the stuff  I draw him a little embarrassing, but then again this lady has seen alot nude drawing so yeah..

Here are are some of my favorites:

That's about all I got for now, I'll probably come back around to making some more pixel art next update.  It's kind of weird that my artistic interest tend to rotate but I guess that what happen when you love art as much I do, is young, and has nothing else better do but do more art and video games.

Well, until next time...

I put this on my sims blog, but I'mma also put this here because ART

I decided to make a niche meme because it look fun to do (Which it was), probably gonna do more of these and I'll probably make a blog post talking about them like I did with aesthetic board (because it's kind of the same but different) but anyways this is all you're getting for now...

(I've decided to call this types of post where I just ramble on about life-related stuff and updates blah blogs and beware that most of these blah blogs are usually typed on my phone and contain alot of typos, run-on sentences and such because it'sall just coming out of my brain and Typepad doesn't have a proper Android app, so it acts really weird on phones when making a post)

Hello, tis I, back from the dead and all. I've been cooling on the internet or at least going on my computer for a while, since---you know---the hoildays and with family coming over and such. But I still do have a lot of ideas for future posts I have notes for a review of the life size sequel....it's a Christmas-ish movie (so yeah that's a thing), I have a draft from the darn onceler fandom that plagued the internet for a while (lucky I got those screenshots and notes before the whole Tumblr purge ), and I want to do a post for what I got for christmas because I made a cute emoji from and by golly Ima use it! 

I've been playing FF15 (mostly for the characters because the story is surprisingly really short if you were to just B-line it, and the ending is really emotional but there like post game play where you basically just go back to bro time like none of that emotional stuff happened--yeah) and while I won't do like a review of the game because I don't know if I'll actually beat it and the story---like-- I said before is Oof, but I might do post about a certain type of character I like in games (and anime) like "the seemlingly happy go luck, but actually sad and tragic but I'll still keep my smile so everyone else happy" type of male character.

I also might do post about secondary fandom or when a rabid fandom springs up for a franschise that gets rebooted in some way/shape/ or form. I really wanted to get my sim blog up and running and an actual thing because I've just being browsing Tumblr CC shopping and looking at all these stories, edits and eyeing these brushes for Photoshop and debating whether or not I should makeover the townies (which i decided I will).

Ive also decided that I'll be putting my NostoNeo comic on hatius and I'll probably be taking the page down (but don't worry---i mean if you care-- I'm still working on it as a story and city as a whole I just want to flush out this first comic) so I'll be replacing it with my other comic, Cupcakes and Clubs, since I've actually finished that comic irl. Although, I don't know if/when illI finish the comic, but I'm doing this for mostly myself and for fun anyways.

I'll still continue making pixel art because that's really fun, and this is an art blog so (duh...)

Oh, I'll be starting to take fundmental art classes at a local art place in my town, so hopefully my art will see a massive improvement. It'll also be pretty cool if I met someone in the art class and make an irl friend or whatever, but the chances of that are slim and the chances of me having the courage to actually talk to a random stranger is even slimmer. So...Oof

But that's basically all I wanted to talk about on this post, just so you know that I'm not dead or I've given up on this blog. I've being having this weird feeling like something big might happen this year, but then again tons of people get that feel every January and the year ends up being pretty...meh and Oof. But, no it feels a little different this time, I don't know

Until next time Happy New year and Later days....