So, I was just hoping around the ne of the discords I usually hang around, and I someone had post a link to a free game, Psychonauts. I had sworn that I heard the game before talked about by one the youtubers I follow who does horror/psychological type of games.  At first I wasn't to interested, so I just shrugged it off and moved on. The next day, I was wandering around on steam, and saw a game called Lilth: Child of Geos. The game looked pretty, cute and there was relevantly speaking no combat (which I like in some games, especially really pretty ones, since I'm not too good with close combat, but I am good at turned based combat). There was alot of people saying that the game was okay, and but little disappointing, even after hearing this I still wanted the game. The creators of the game had claimed that game was similar to Zelda, Broken Age ( two games I already like) and Psychonauts. It was then and there I decided to finally try Psychonauts because if I liked Psychoanuts that means I would definitely like Child of Geos! Good thing too, because Psychonauts was free, but only for two days. It was only 10 hours left the free sale. So, I got the game and started playing as soon as it downloaded.

    Psychonauts is about a young boy named Raz going to a camp that trains kids to hone in  on their psychic abilities, but Raz came to the camp, so he can train on all the psychic abilites to become a part of group of psychic heros called the Psychonauts. Raz soon finds out about a evil plan going on at the camp, and it's up to him to stop it. But, he only has a limted time because he ran away from his family circus and is afraid that his dad will come and take him away. The game was published Majesco Entertainment and developed by Double Fine.

The story of this game is one of things I like about this game. Even though, I just kind of explained it above that more a the TL;DR verison.  The characters is what really makes the game for me, they'er all different and unqine in their own way. Even at the start of the game when the game lets you walk around the camp, and talk with the campers. It lets you really get to know them individually and near the end you need to get their brains back, which would be kind of annoying to do in any other game, but here it really felt like I was saving them.  One of my favorite campers was Dogen Boole, I found his personality to be really sweet and he really seemed to look up to Raz. I also liked how Raz was kind of like a brother figure for Dogen and always looking out for him. I  also liked Lily, Raz's love interest at freest she seems kind of like the tsudere type, but she slowly starts to warm up the Raz. While I still like the campers and all I really wish we could have actually dive in one their mind-scapes , and get to know them a little better (Espically Dogen since he did once made someone's head exploded, I love to see how that change him as a person).  

The character who minds you do get to dive into are still fun and interesting as the campers. Another two favorites were Milla Vodella, I found her character to be very sweet and motherly which make sense to due her tragic background story. I liked her level too. Out of all the levels, Her's was the most upbeat one and it really fun to bounce around and the race was fun too.  Edgar Teglee is another character the comes to mind, he really fit into the role of a tortured artist and his level was really fun to look at.  

Back the story the story was really well paced in my opinion, and I never really felt like it was dragging on too long, and even when it did I usually just thought it was because I was just being dumb and got myself stuck somewhere. The gameplay also fit well with story, you could tell that the developers really wanted to make a good story and a good game at the same time.  Even when I did get stuck in a level or frustrated I didn't want to give up because I wanted to see what was going to happen next.  I also like to add that this game is really strange but in a good way. If you going to play this game it's best if you go in knowing nothing at all like I did. I like how you really didn't know what was going to happen next in this game, and it just kept going getting more  weirder and weirder. The ending was pretty satisfying too.

The game play itself was pretty decent. I liked how I could use different types of psychic abilities, and it was good amount to where I think it was too much for me to get in the game, or less to point where it felt like I didn't have any powers at all.  The game really lets you solve the puzzle on your own after the tutorial it lets go of your hand.  The game also forces you to think outside of the box, and if you really do need help you can call up of the characters to give you a hint. The game likes to push you to really explore your surroundings. The one of the things I didn't like about the game-play was the map, that didn't seem too useful outside camp at least for me. I even forgot I had one most of the time. There also a lot back tracking in this game and the enemies will response once you leave the area, which did get really annoying. The camera would really annoying, it was hard to position the camera and also aim at an enemy at least with the way my controls were set up. Saving was also problem because I would standing in place where I personally thought it was safe (no enemy and I was near a dangerous  area , just plain safe) and then when I re-load it would put me back the start. I guess I'm just too used to being able to save any and everywhere in a new games.  Controlling with the levitation ball was a a little weird when making tight jumps, and land on tight comers. Two enemy I found really annoying was these fire dogs in one level and every time I would try to aim at them,  they would spit fire like every second, and the sword throwing enemies in the last level. They only appeared the last level, which there was also an escort  mission and it was fun trying to escort a slow walking character while having sword thrown at you. Another, level I didn't like was a level that was all acrobatics but there was water climbing up the level, so you had to be quick. I'm terrible at level were I'm being chased or there's a time limit. Overall the gameplay was decent.

 The graphic in this game are amazing. It really gives the game it's own charm, I think some people could be turned off by the character designs, but most of them aren't too bad too look at. The game doesn't feel old even though it's over 10 years old, and the game feels pretty timeless. Each level has their own mood and theme, even though all the characters have tragic back stories none of the levels has like an overall sad tone, each of them are unique to the characters. The level are also diffrent in how they'er handle in one level you have to fight in wrestling matchs, in another help set up a play. The only levels I didn't like graphic wise was the last one, which was a meat themed circus and inside of the insane asylum. Visually the insane asylum just got boring to look at. The neighborhood level was one where you can tell they kind of went over board with the design, because I got confused alot in that level. Overall, the level were pretty well designed.

Overall, I think the game's pretty solid, it was fun to play and pretty enjoyable and memorable experience. I would recommended this game to anyone who like psychological and strange games.  The game has pretty nice flow and is never boring. I'm really glad I got to play this because the sequel is suppose to be coming next year. The game currently is going for 9.99$ on Steam, and that's pretty worth.

I give it:

 9.5/10 stars

Yesterday, I was pretty upset because I embarrassed myself in front someone I admire. I was moping around for most of the day, So I listen to a playlist on Youtube called "When I get sad I drink bubble tea, it cheers me up alot". This started out as vent art, but it became something more..

I was going to do a retrospective on the 3rd Splatfest in Splatoon 2, but I was feeling really down. So I decided to skip out on SplatFest, instead played Mother 3 since my brother told me it was sad (which the first chapter was) and then I was going to do a retrospective on that, but I'm just gonna wait until I beat the game. Today, one of the youtubers I follow made a video about a manga called The Promised Neverland, he said it was really sad and dark which made me want to check it out.  I read the first chapter and I decided to blog my thoughts about it....

So, When I first saw Promised Neverland it kind of looked like a fantasy magical girl anime, which  I assume because there was a young female main character. When I was younger I used to love that genre, but it started to get old and some of the magical girl animes I was watching just started to get weird (not in a good way), Anyways I found out that this manga was actually featured in Shonen Jump, which in Japan isn't that rare to have a female main character in something an adventure action genre. So it seemed like there's something more to this..

    The few first pages showcased an idealistic scene of children playing in a large field outside of mansion, the main character Emma, 11 years old, reveals that this mansion is an orphan and she's one of the oldest children there out of all 32 children. Emma and the other kids loved there seemly prefect life of days fulled with playing outside, eating delicious food, and oh...taking a high tech standardize test daily. The caretaker of orphan know as  Mama tell the children the test acts as substitute for traditional school. Emma, and her best friends Ray and Norman score the highest in their class.(?) All the other kids idolize Emma and her friend because their the smartest, most nimble, and most strategic of them all.  

At this point of the story, it was really giving me Maximum Ride vibes, I was really excepting the orphanage to be like some like way to scout out young kids with superpowers. The story was also following the typical beats of a False Utopia poltline, and that's not anything bad in my opinion a trope can be used, it's how that trope is used that matters. Anyways, the story really starts when one of the orphans named Conny is finally taken in by foster parents. She tells everyone that even though she not smart like Emma and her friends, she wants to be just like Mama when she grows up, to be a good mother and not let any of her kids go.  After, Conny leaves Emma notices that she had forgotten the plush bunny Mama had given Conny when she first got here, it seemed strange to just leave it behind after such a heartfelt speech. Emma and Norman make it their mission to give it back to her.

The orphans aren't suppose to adventure outside because it's dangerous, so they'er protect by a gate. The only way they know about the outside world is through books and novels found in the library.When they get near the gate, Emma and Norman see a car for what looks like the first time in their  lives. They check the car for Conney, and they find her but she's not live anymore, they soon  discover that what they thought was an orphanage was actually a human farm and when a child gets send off to live with  their foster parents, they'er actually being killed and sold for meat by demons. I personally wasn't surprised by this fact, I saw it coming as so as Conney talked about how not smart she is, and how she dreamed of being  mother when she grew up.   

 What I really liked about this story is what happened next, after discovering that this whole time all her friends were being sold off and eaten and that even Mama was in on it ,  Emma starts to have a mental break down as her and Norman make their way back. Norman comforts Emma by telling her and they'll just run away, but Emma reminds him that if they do that the others will meet the same faith as Conney, and Emma states that she doesn't want anymore of her  siblings to die.  Norman reassures her  that  with their skills along with Ray's they'll be able to  escape with everyone. Chapter one ends with Emma gathering her thoughts and being determined to fight against the adults.

What I like about The Promised Neverland is despite the story so far isn't anything new, I really like the characters in it, they'er all really likable. Emma is the right amount quirkiness to where she know how to act during a serious situation and when it's time to get down to business. She also acts a pretty good big sister to younger kids being helpful, fun-loving, and cheerful, she also really smart which is a trait I really didn't expect her to have. (but I read/watch magical girl stuff and in those stories the main characters are usually lazy, and hate school) So, it was a breath of fresh air to me. Norman seems to have the chill guy archetype, where he cool and collected for the most part, but he cares about Emma and the others alot.  Ray, there no much yet I can say about him, but his character does have potential to be a great character.

 What I think may happen next is that they find out the people who are sold away are the less capable ones , and The mother's trying to keep Ray, Emma, Norman (maybe?) or they'er prime meat because one of the demons did mention of getting higher quality meat in the near future and Emma, Ray, and Norman are reaching the age of 12, where they can no longer live  on the farm. Also have the feeling that the books in the library don't hold the whole truth about the outside world, like how it is now at the point of the story. The library is probably fulled with old books.... 

Overall, I think this manga has a pretty good start, it tells you enough to get invested, but not too much to keep it a mystery. I also like how the cutesy art design of the children is side by side with the more detailed kind of hyper realistic demon character designs.   I may talk about the series more on this blog, but I still want to blog about other thinks like why some MMORPGS die off (at least the ones I play), I'll probably dedicated another spot an the blog for Promised Neverland, I've already join the Reddit and I'm getting the English version of manga in December. I'm still going to read the translation done by the fans on Reddit tho'

I give it a 

  4.5/5 stars

    Like any kid I never really liked school, siting in a uncomfortable plastic chair with a desk that had obscene doodles and eraser marks that could be only seen at specific angle, having to listen to the teacher go on and on about a subject I most likely wasn't interest in. Most of the times I would think of ways that could get me out of this prison, and I would give anything to miss a day of school, but one of the few schooldays I wouldn't dare to miss was when the book fair was in town (well..school).  I always loved  books growing up as a kid, I loved passing by the libary in the hallway and seeing them set the red cardboard shelves, and setting up the scholastic sign. I would wait days on end excited for when would line up and go to the library, so we could participate in the festivity.

     Now, looking back it, the teachers were probably prompt to take us to the book fair anyways to push us to read more. It work for me,but I already loved reading anyways. I remember it had to take at least three trips to the bookfair. One to see which book I wanted, then when I went home I would ask my mom for money and I could only get at least one book so I really had to make it count, Two, on the second trip if I hadn't gotten my money yet and/or to see if I still wanted the book this trip was mostly to check if the book was still there I would be on the edge the most at stage because the book fair would only last for a week until it was gone. Finally, the third and final trip when I had finally got the money, I would almost race to be the first to one to walk in (or most of the time the teacher would let me be the line leader so I would be first one to enter, I was always a good kid and the teacher knew how much I liked to read)  and ran to obtain my objective. With my book in hand I would open and read as so as I got it and I was usually always and forever satisfied with the choice I had made....Until one day...  

    It was the middle of  first semester of 6th grade, and it was that time of the school year again book fair week, it was my first book fair middle school. It was during advisement/lunch time, the rule in middle school was that since they were preparing us for high school and most kids were losing their passion for reading or just didn't care, we could go to book fair by ourselves. So, I went in a small group of kids from my class and start my old routine of  book fairs pre usual. At this time during middle school I was going through my comic/manga phase since my middle school had a small comic and manga section.( this was also the start of my short live or if you could even call it because it was so short of my small weeaboo phase, but that's a story for later) so since I liked the comic books they had at school, I decided the the book fair was the prefect place for looking for new comics.

  Luckily, I stumbled upon a book titled "Smile" the cover of book had a yellow smiley face with semi reflective braces on it's teeth, the smiley face really stood out against the teal background. The book was heartier the other comics at school that were pretty slim.  I decided to thumb through the book, and as I did I saw a page that had a picture of what looked like the main character laying down near a pool of blood. I remember that this was one of the reason I wanted to get the book because I thought "Wow the character must  have like almost died the very beginning of the book!". By the looks of the art made it seem like the typical slice of life stories I usually enjoy, so to have that scene in there was pretty shocking to my young mind. I wanted to know how the main character was going to recover after such a tragic and dramatic event.  I obsessed over the book for mostly of that week, I remember that it was the only book I got at the book fair when it was the near the end. I felt so happy when I finally got Smile and I was so happy, I took it home and read it over thanksgiving break....

I fell in love with the book immediately, I loved the art, loved and related to the main character Raina, and  I loved how it was based on a true story. What I really like was the ending and I hoped the  same thing would happened to me in highschool, since at the time middleschool wasn't really that great.  So, anytime I would feel down or discourage about something I would read this book to remind me to keep going as stora of motivation, but then around 7th grade I lost the book and I didn't find until around 11th grade. I was pretty happy when I read it again, I realized something....The book kind of sucked now. I was really confused I was like is this the book I fell in love with and almost got depressed 'cause I lost it?! It was like  I was reading a totally different book I was so baffled by it keep bothering me for longest. So, now I have blog I decided that this was the first thing I should blog about since it was a real big change to me...(also this isn't a review of the book, just a perspective on how it change to me as I got older) 

To sum up the book  it's about the author Raina Telgemeier who lived a pretty normal life until one night after a girl scout meeting , her friends challenge her to a race to the porch trying to catch up to her friend she accidentally trips and falls face first on to the street, knocking out her two front teeth in the process. From then on most of the book's about her visits to the dentist for her braces (Which she was going to get anyways) and to make sure her two front teeth grow back in normally. All this while trying to survive both puberty, and middle/high school.

The  first of thing I notice when re-reading the book is that Raina's a really boring character. I've read other books like Smile with young female protagonist and I have say Raina's the most boring and basic out of all of them.  I mean I just it to make her a relatable character for tweens  but doesn't mean you have to make her boring.  There's nothing I really say that makes Raina stand out as a character, I mean she reacts to fact the she needs to get braces like any other girl, she has low self-esteem, and is gullible in general and to peer pressure. The only thing that kind of makes her different is that at one point in the book she talks about playing video games, but that only mention a few times in the book and it's gone.  Seeing that this book 's a graphic novel I would think she would at least talk about how or why she started drawing or if she ever made mini comics about her journey with braces and getting teeth surgery, but no the concept of her liking to draw is brought about four times, but is  majorly talk about and focus on once. In a scene where the Little Mermaid first premiered at movies, she goes to see with her family, she around about age 12 and she's in that "I want to be a teenage" phase so she wasn't too excited to see the movie at first but then after watching and falling in love with it, she decides then and there she wants to be an animator. ( I always thought someone who has true passion for drawing never goes  through an "ugh animation's for kids" phase) which you would think that would change her some way to where she can start to embrace herself but she goes right back to worrying  about other think. There are other points that get highlighted on like her getting her ears pierced, and her first crush, but why not talk about the first comic you made, or how drawing help her coped with what happened.

Another, thing about Raina is she kind of jerk too. During seventh grade, Raina is in music class and in that class there's a six grader who quickly develops a crush on her, and she likes the attention. She starts to lightly flirt with him and she even at one point daydreams about being saved by him during an earthquake. Her friends tease her about it but she still likes him, until after watching the little mermaid and discussing it in art class with one of her friends  a guy named Sean over hears them, and Sean says he thought the movie was cool. She instantly falls for him as she starts to think about Sean more and more her six grade crush falls to the wayside.  When the Valentine's day dance rolls around she talks with other  friend about how she wants to go to the dance with Sean instead of the six grader. Her friend suggest that Raina should just ask Sean out,  but Raina wants  Sean to ask her first despite the fact up until this point the only interact she had with the dude was just small talk and smiles.

She  asked Sean if he's going to the dance he basically says no, the next day Raina's friend confirms that Sean's definitely not going to the dance, but the friend suggest Raina should still go come along with all her other friends. Later, her sixth grade crush ask Raina if she's going to the dance and she replies with Yeah..I guess.  When she arrives at the dance  she just stands outside the gym and then goes home. The sixth grade crush feels "crushed" by Raina not showing up to the dance and gives her a bag but she doesn't open it during class, he tells her to just forget it. When Raina gets home she opens the bag to find a cute card with a box of chocolate that was on sale. While she does admit she deserves to be ignored by the sixth grader the next day, she continues to think about her other crush.  There's another example of Raina being a jerk when she's invited to a end of the year party, and at the party they play spin the bottle, all the other boys and girl kiss other and then laugh it off saying how gross it was. Raina passes because she doesn't want some boy to comment on how gross it was that he had to kiss her, which I understand but then she says that all the guys at the party are gross, but it was guy invited her to the party. Also, a few pages before she was saying how some of the guys were easier to talk to than her girlfriends?

Anyways, she goes on to say that she doesn't want her first kiss to happen during a game of spin the bottle with a boy she doesn't even like, she wants everything to be just prefect when it happens. In my opinion, I think the prefect kiss just happens spontaneously you can't really prepare for it, it just happens and you know it happens when makes you feel good inside. One thing that Raina did and didn't do that really got to me was that she want to get Sean attention, and how does she  go about doing this? you ask? she joins the freakin' basketball team because Sean likes basketball, she tries out for team and obviously fails because she doesn't practice before hand and wasn't really good at gym to began with, but I guess you can use the excuse love makes you do crazy things.

What really got me upset about this is the next day her friend then suggest that she should just draw Sean a picture and give to him, but Raina freaks out and chickens out says there's no way she going to do that. This is something  I have actually done with guys that I liked,  Once in high school, and the other with a guy I admire online.  While all I did with my high school crush was show him my sketchbook which I thought was a pretty good idea because he liked to draw too, the reaction I got was a shrug and a "that looks cool". I didn't draw a picture for him because everytime I would ask if he liked this or how he felt about  that he would response with "I don't know." While the online dude I just drew a picture of him, since he said doesn't mind if people draw fan art of him, which I did and he liked it and that made my day. Again, it's not like I wanted him to have same feelings back (I mean he's already taken) but it did get him to notice me and showed how much I admired him (I'm actually working on his birthday drawing as I'm typing on this blog.) All Raina had to do was ask or stalk Sean to see what he likes (or just draw his favorite basketball palyer) make the drawing, hid it in his desk or locker with her name on and that's it, instead of making a fool of herself in front of the entire girls b-ball team.  

Another thing that I realized that made me not like Raina as character is that I feel like she really didn't embrace herself or her quirks. As I grew older I began to noticed that the type of characters I liked were girls who were quirky and embraced their quirkiness throughout their story characters like Nikki for Dork Daries or the girls from the Popluarity Papers. I love these books to this today because these girls know they don't fit in and even though they would try to fit, they like to stand out! but then again those girls have good friends and know when it's time to end of friendship or to take break from someone, and they're not that gullible and they'er  more unique in personality.  Raina didn't really accept herself until she looked like a normal girl and was accepted by others..

So, that's all I have to say about Raina, now on to her friends and also how unrealistic some of things that happen in the book are.. Oh BOI

While kind of stora researching on Amazon reviews about the book, one in particular stated and praised the book for being really realistic.  Which it's not, I know it's based on a true story, but I wouldn't go praise this book for realism. Out of all the things exaggerated in this book I think Raina's friends and their actions are exaggerated to the highest of the heavens.  Okay, So after Raina gets her teeth knock out  and comes back to school all her friends  and especially the one who inadvertently cause her accident feel bad for her and ask her if she's okay, at first that makes you go like okay that's some good friends you got right there, but then after she gets the cast on her teeth remove and her two front teeth are now short than the other her friends comment that it doesn't look that bad. Raina said that she was worry she would look like a baby with her teeth the way they are, but one of friends says that the  pigtails make  her look like a baby, she then goes home and feel conscious  about her looks.  

Raina then gives a note to her teacher saying that she'll won't be there because she has a endodontist appointment, her friend then comments saying "Sounds like it'll be the end of you!"....first of all who talks like this ? Second, your friend had her teeth knock out and now proabably has to go through hours of painful surgeries and procedures to get them back to normal, why would you say something like that!?

 When Raina has a short lived crush on a six grader, when one of her friends find out they reply with "Wow, What a shrimp..." when I told my friends at school I liked someone they would reply with "yeah he's cute", but I guess she just trying to blantly  show how bad her friends were. Another time was when Raina had gotten a retainer as a replacement for her braces temporarily, she complains about how unfair it was that she was going to back to square one and not be cool anymore. One of her friends stated the Raina was never cool, she always looked like a nerd, another friend asked "Who called themselves a nerd" and Raina replies with "nobody" then her friend tease her by calling her a nobody, then Raina gets up and leaves. Her  friends claim that they don't know why she's freaking out. On Raina's thirteenth birthday her friends trick her into dressing up in a ridiculous outfit claiming that's what Sean's into, then Raina gets upset then later ask "What if I went to school dressed up like that!" and one of her friend responses with "yeah,it wouldn't be funny.....it would be hilarious!" then they all start laughing. (I don't know  why she didn't drop kick her friends right then and there but whatever)

The last thing, her friends did before she broke away from them. It was during the first few weeks of high school and because of her braces she had to keep small supply of oral hygiene products in her backpack at school. One day, it all spills out at lunch and her friends tease her for having dog breath, even though they knew about Raina's condition for THIS long since the 6TH GRADE  I MEAN COME ON! anyways, Raina gets upset (again!) and goes to get a snack form the vending machine the two girls in her friend group that bullied her the most decide to "pants" her (even thought she's wearing a jean skirt over leggings and what kind of girls pants their friend even if their teasing her, that's more of a boy thing). They pantsed  her  and everyone in the lunchroom laughed and Raina goes running to the bathroom and cries.  Her friends still claim that she's over reacting and it wasn't that bad because she was wearing leggings.  What I think about the  whole situation is that if this were to happened in real life I could see it happening at like a middle  or elementary school not a high school. Even if it did happened at  a high school with a girl as a victim I don't think anybody would laugh, and girls  who did it would end up looking like jerks or perverts.   

Anyways, Raina stands up for herself finally it was kind lackluster in my opinion (mostly because she didn't drop kick them) She told them she was done with them, she finds some new friends and fun with them , they accept her for who she is, and happily ever after.

So, that's basically what  I think about Smile, even though I don't enjoy it now,  and kind of embarrassed for liking it so much as a  tweenager. I think the real reason why I didn't enjoy the book now because the whole thing's kind of has a little bit a special snowflake story. While I do believe the pain was bad, and  I think the whole situation could have been solved if Raina just took what she had and embraced it, instead of hiding it or being ashamed of it, or asking why the world's being so  unfair to her I just thinks she needed to just deal with it. 

All in all the book's still good to read along as you're under the age of 13 after that it's kind of drag. 

if you made it this long, congratulation and thank you for reading this novel of blog. I'll probably try to blog every week or every other day until I run of the things to blog about.

Well, until next time later days` 

The Reasons Why I started this blog:

1. I have alot thoughts and opinions I want to share it with people who actually take the time to sit and read/ listen.
2. I'm bored since I don't have school or a real job, I think this would be a fun thing to do as hobby.
3. I like to express myself through many mediums while I can draw, but it takes time for me to get the drawing and sketch right, so typing out my thoughts is just easier for me to get it out of the way
4. I want to see if someone share the same opinions as I do. (Never hurts to know someone out there thinks the same as you, and how know I may even make a friend or whatever...)
5. I'll no longer have these thought just repeatedly racing through my head with nowhere to go, now they can live here happily (hopefully)
6. I think it will be fun to find this blog years later to see if I still have to the same thoughts.
7. I wouldn't mind having a another place to post my art and animation, maybe this blog could double as my portfolio

That's about all the reasons I can think of at the moment right, now hopefully I'll able to keep up dating this blog, which I don't think it will be hard since I'm always thinking about things. I like I said I've always wanted to share my ideas and thoughts with people who would listen, but unlike most young people now a days I don't want start a YouTube channel or anything. With the adpocalypse, and YouTube censoring people I just think a blog is just a safer bet for me at the moment. (Also that and I hate the sound my own voice!)